Thoughts!

Well I hate Sundays due to Clay leaves for work for the week. I have gotten so bored on Sunday nights!

Well I was thinking about how much I kinda don't like my job. I love helping people but I hate the hours I have to work. I wish I could work more like a 9 to 5 or 8 to 4. It would prevent me from sitting around all morning wishing I didn't have to go to work at 3. I also wish Clay made enough so I could work part time.....that will never happen. I sometimes think about what it would be like to work from home or if I actually got out my sewing machine and made bags to sell if I could reach that goal of dropping down to at least every other weekend at work. Once again reality hit me and I remember I lived in the real world. Maybe some day I can find something where I can work from home and set my own hours..........hopefully some day soonish.

I guess what I am saying is maybe now a days parents shouldn't push their kids to start working so young. By no means did my mother push me to work but I started young I kinda wish I didn't I wish I took that time to have fun and do what I wanted.

Love Always
Sarah

True Blood!!!

Well within the last week or so I have started to watch True Blood...I have to say I am hooked! I just finished season 2 and was thinking...I wish I could have a Bill a man that would be willing to die for me, come running when I am in danger, Love me even though it goes against all odds (I could go on and on)The truth is I kinda do or at least I think I do. I know for a fact Clay will stick up for me, he has defended me before towards men! The whole come running when I am in danger truth be told I don't live a wild life where I would ever be in danger where I couldn't save myself....I do think if he was able to he would come to my rescue if needed. Clay has loved me since the day we meet...He has always been on my side through the ups and downs.
So I would say I do have myself a bill well a more modern version of Bill within the whole vampire thing!!!

That's it for now!

Love always
Sarah

Sadness!

Well the Hubby just left for the week for work! I am happy due to him being excited to work some place they won't call him worthless or dumb. I am also not to worried because he is with a friend who works there as well. I can not lie it still hurts to see him pack up and leave knowing I won't be able to come home and roll over and kiss him goodnight, everyone has kinda bugged me by saying well its good time apart......Time away from my hunny is never good. It feels like I am loosing one of the only people I can vent to and he doesn't argue or put me down for what i feel at the time. *yea yea I know I am being mushy* I will be better by mid week I always am. I just hate how much time we have actually spent apart because of his work! It doesn't help that I do like being alone and when left alone all I do is think about things which usually make me feel down on myself sometimes.

BLAH......... new topic please!!!!!!

I was thinking at work today about ALOT of things. One thing being what do people see/ think when they look at me.  I had an ex boyfriend contact me after almost 7 years of not speaking. He expressed how lucky Clay is to have me.....my response was dumbfondness. We dated for almost 2 years and all you have to say to me now is you messed up and I am suppose to do what?!?! He stated how sorry he was that he let me go and wishes I could give him another chance someday.......Are you stupid? I am married! He seemed to think he would "better" for me then my Husband. I had to do all but to laugh at the statement. By the end of the conversation he stated "Your Husband is really lucky and I hope he doesn't ever mess up because if he does I will hurt him!" .............REALLY?.........I would love to 1. see him try to touch Clay 2. Clay treated me better in the first month then he ever did in the two years we were together.

Well that's my rant and sharing for the day.

Love Always
Sarah

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

What goes through my little head before bed!!!!!

I was sitting in bed with the Hubby last night and I started to think........How is it that the only person I can call my best friend (beside my family of course) is my Hubby. I understand that is how I can call him my love is because he is my best friend. I just dont understand how in my life he is the only person that is that close to me, that knows the ins and outs of me as a friend. I feel as if I have some amazing friends people I can truly talk to when I need it the most but no one that I would say is "like a sister" please don't take this the wrong way!
I have gone through my whole life just wanting two things really........A Husband which I finally have.......A Friend that knows more about me then I know about myself.........Which I think I only ever had once but that relationship has been pretty much been nonexistent for the last 5 years. I wondered last night is it my fault? Am I reaching for something that will never happen? Is it me that prevents this from happening........I could go on and on with questions that filled my head before falling asleep last night. I woke up this morning and the thought that crossed my mind was......Maybe it is just not the way my life was meant to be like maybe I was meant to just have this one main person in my life that serves a duel purpose that person being Clay.
Some of you I am sure are saying to yourself, She has wrapped her entire world into this man.....So what maybe I have but this man again besides my family has always been there for me through the down and up times always knowing what to say ,how to act to make me go from frown to laughing so hard I am crying. So yes I have wrapped myself into this world of Clay's Wife. Who is to say that my life would be any better if I had done what my "friends" at the time wanted me to do.

I guess my point is sure I don't have a group of girls that we can go out to lunch every Sunday but I do have a few girls that I can call when I am down and they do their best to pick me up and I have a husband that is and will be there for me no matter what. That is what I have to learn to love and accept as reality.

Love Always
Sarah!

Survey I got from a friend!!!!

You've been tagged; you have the honor of copying all these goofy questions, writing your own response, and tagging 25 other victims. You have to tag me; so really, you just need 24 more people. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you, my friends.



1. What time did you get up this morning?

7:35 a.m.



2. How do you like your steak?

Meduim



3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?

Preditor



4. What is your favorite TV show?

Lark Rise To Candleford





5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?

England!!!!



6. What did you have for breakfast?

Yoguart, lunch meat sandwhich



7. What is your favorite cuisine?

mexican



8. What foods do you dislike?

Sea Food due to being allergic



9. Favorite Place to Eat?

Texas Roadhouse



10. Favorite dressing?

Homemade mustard dressing





11. What kind of car do you drive?

Chrystal Intrpided



12. What are your favorite clothes?

Retro Dresses





13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?

LA, Most of Europe



14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?

1/2 empty



15. Where would you want to retire?

Some where different



16. Favorite time of day?

11pm or midnight....no one is around!



17. Where were you born?

Neenah, Wi



18. What is your favorite sport to watch?

Baseball, Basketball



19. Who do you think will not tag you back?

I am sure no one will tag me!



20. Person you expect to tag you back first?

I am sure no one will tag me!



21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this?

Everyone that does respond



22. Bird watcher?

I like to watch them once in a while but I wont spend my saturday morning looking!



23. Are you a morning person or a night person?

Depends if I had enough sleep....usually a night person!





24. Pets?

two cats



25. Any new and exciting news that you'd like to share?

I own a house



26. What did you want to be when you were little?

of gezzzz that is a lot of things, Teacher, Wife



27.Car accident?

yes twice




32. Any pet peeves?

smoking pregnant women ( this one was kelly's I agree 100%) People asking me to repeat myself more then once!





33. Favorite pizza toppings?

pineapple and ham or chicken and bbq



34. Favorite Flower?

Calia lillys



35. Favorite ice cream?

well I can't eat too much ice cream but I like butter peacan. Frozen yoguart I love blueberry



36. Favorite fast food restaurant?

Jack in the Box even tho there isn't one around me





37. How many times did you fail your driver's test?

None got it on the first try



38. From whom did you get your last email?

my aunt Carol



39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?

Torrid or Lane Bryant



40. Do anything spontaneous lately?

bought a book I could have rented from the libray



42. Broccoli?

Yes please!


43. What was your favorite vacation?

Going to seattle with my Mother and cousin John to see my godfather!!!!!



44. Last person you went out to dinner with?

My Hubby!





45. What are you listening to right now?



Travie McCoy - Billionaire




46. What is your favorite color?

tie between......hot pink and red



47. How many tattoos do you have?

one



48. How many are you tagging for this quiz?

not sure yet



49. What time did you finish this quiz?

3:41pm





50. Coffee Drinker?

Yes

Spending our House tax rebate and understanding how I became who I am!!!!!

Well I actually thought it would be hard for us to spend money on things. I guess I was wrong...it is hard for me to spend money on things. We first went and got a good dehumidifier for our basement. Then we went to sears and got a nice whirlpool duet set washer and dryer. It was fun picking out what I wanted with options I wanted......then my mouth went from smile to confusion. When I saw the end price with delivery and setup and haul away the old ones, I lost it. I looked at Clay and said "Is this really how people feel when they walk in and say I want that and don't really look at the price?" Clay had to keep asking me if I was ok. Well then the real fun started, We went to home depot to get some basic tools we need for around the house and power tools. I told Clay go ahead grab what you think we need I am not going to look at prices. I have to say I am very proud of my husband. A man that is usually the one saying you know that's a little high in price, walked around grabbing things saying we need it and its not earned money. The scary thing is after this day of spend money like mad people we still have a little over half of the money left to spend. Yes we plan on putting a chunk in the bank for "you never know." It just feels good to have a nest egg for once in our lives. I have to say I truly feel like an adult/ old maid. I have a husband,house,car, wonderful cats and a good job and I am only 22.

I think if my grandma was still alive today she would be very proud of how I have turned out. Thanks to my mother I have become a adult that believes she can do anything if I put my little mind to it! Thanks to my wonderful husband who has taught me I don't have to take peoples crap in life and stand up for myself. Thanks to those friends that have come and gone in my life it has shown me I can move on with life with or without people, shown me how mature I truly am. Thanks to those who never believed in me....you pushed me that much harder to prove you wrong. I have to say I think I have proven so many people wrong within the last year.


Without all these people I have loved,meet,hated and known my whole life I don't think I would be the adult I am today, So Thank You for being my motivation, back bone, rock and anchor!!!!!



Love Always
Sarah