Memories....Suck!

It is amazing how something so simple can make you remember or take you back to a time that you spent so much time forgetting.  How if I had a wish I would go back to that time and just live, but then again that is what got me to the place I am now. So I feel as if all those years of wondering if all paths ended in different places were wrong. All roads would lead to the current destiny, correct? 

So in the end I have learned that memories suck. I wish I could delete certain thoughts and images from my head. I wish I could store them away til I am old and grey and need a good story to tell the nurse taking care of me. Unfortunately I have learned that I do not always get what I want, that God has another plan for me.I would do better if I knew said plan because from the looks of it now I will end up alone, old and unpleasant. 

I will end this blog there. 

Love Always 

Sarah 

Spa Day and random thoughts

So I was sitting thinking about what I could do today. It dawned on that it has been some time since I took the day for myself and pampered ME!
So I did just that today. Here is a list of a few things I did today........

I laid in bed just a little longer than normal.
I stayed in my pjs all day.
I applied a face mask. One I grabbed at ulta a few months back.
I applied a homemade hair mask. Simply olive oil and honey warmed up.
I danced around for almost an hour.
I than did something I havent done in a while....took a bath.
I used a bath bomb from Lush.

And of course no pamper day is complete without a nice glass of wine. :) I know it doesn't sound like much but it has been a while since I took a day and did nothing.

So I have deiced to make this a more regular thing. I promised myself I will do this once a week no matter what.

I think as women we get so busy taking care or thinking about others we forget about our self.  I know I have noticed over the last month how much I would put myself on the back burner because everyone else I knew came before me, Well starting today that stops!

I could ramble on and on so I will stop there ;)

Love Always,
Sarah A

Life!!!!!!!!

Where to begin….Where to start…Where life is at

Life has a funny way of throwing things at you when you least expect it. The hardest thing is trying to figure out what God has planned because everything happens for a reason….right?

Well within the last two months, God has thrown me a curve ball that I wasn’t sure how I would ever attempt to hit. To my surprise He knew I had the strength to pick myself up and do what needed to be done.  

I am now on the road to learning more about myself than I have ever before. Some days are worse than others but hey that is life right? I am just hoping God can slow down on the curve balls for a while until I am ready and have a little bit of time to recover from this one.

For the family and love ones that might be reading this, Some of you might know what I am going though and I love that you are by my side. For the others of you please try to bear with me for the time being, there is a lot going on right now and me being me I am trying to find strength within to piece back together what I need to before putting my smile back on display.

Just know I love you all.

Love always

Sarah

So here we go again!!!!

Well hello there. It has been a bit since I last posted, I am sorry for that. Life sure has gotten away from me the last year.

First things first No I am no preggers. I have to make that clear since everyone and there sister seems to ask me. All I can say is it is something we have talked more about lately. 

Second I am loving my new job as a CNA at the hospital in town. I love the fast pace (somedays lol) I get to meet some many wonderful people, it's great and I am loving it.

Third thing I wanted to talk about is SCENTSY!!! I know but I am loving Scentsy. It really has changed my life. I get to bring such joy to people through scents. I am going to be shamless here and plug in my website. www.sarahscents.scentsy.us if you need anything or have any questions feel free to email me as well. sarahascents@gmail.com.

Fourth thing. I have had a few ups and down lately with life. There are days I feel like I am on top of things and then there are days I feel kinda left behind. I have felt more like this lately but I know it is because high school graduations have been going on and I always think of the "what ifs" of life. There are some people I miss but then again there are just memories I miss more then people. I have just summed it up to the fact that life goes on and things change, we either learn to change with them or hold ourselves back and achieve nothing but sitting there waiting for life to turn out the way we want.

A quote I live by......Life is not about waiting for the storm to pass but learning how to dance in the rain......

Well I am hoping this will be the start of more to come from me again. I work A LOT less now so I have more time to do things such as write my blog updates and clean the house...right lol (no really its still is dirty! )

So this is it for now.

Love Always,
Sarah A

Random thoughts

So it has been a while since my last post. Here is what has been going on in my life.

Well I started my nursing assistance classes, Furthered my Pure Romance business and let go the thought of my embroidery business. I removed my implanon from my arm (which welcomed an almost 2 year in the waiting period.)

Yes all this with in a matter of months! I know crazy huh. But I did forget to mention The hubby still works out of the state during the week and for a while was working saturdays as well. So I did in a way distance myself from friends and family as all I had for some time was my sundays with him before he left again sunday night to start the whole week over again.
No! I don't want you to feel bad for us, We make it work and it reminds us each day how much we NEED each other to complete our happiness. I know I know some of you might disagree with that statement well the only thing I can say is I am sorry you feel that way but it doesn't make me change the way I view things. Sometimes I lay in bed and think about how life was just a few short years ago....then I realize life doesn't stop just because you wish it did. You merely have to roll with the punches and the Hubby working the way he does is just that. I always look forward to the winter as he is home for a few months before the craziness starts again. This year I am concerned it will be a crazy few months as I am in the hunt for a new job after I finish my CNA class.
Sometimes I don't understand why things happen or what reason bad things happen. I do believe there is a time line of when things are suppose to happen that we do not see as God is watching it to make sure it happens when he thinks we are ready to handle it, but trying as it may be we just have to hold each other hand and let it be right? 
I just have to keep reminding myself that things happen for a reason and I can't change some things. I have to also remind myself that I need to let go of all the what ifs in my life and live life in the now! Easier said then done right?!

Well now that I have vented/updated I will leave you to read this and get a look into what goes through my scary mind sometimes!

Love Always
Sarah

Pure Romance

So I have been a pure romance consultant for a few months now and I have noticed something. Women want to buy things but as soon as they talk to their partners they change their mind. Why is that? As women we should be able to please ourselves first sometimes....right? Also just because your woman gets a bedroom item to use doesn't mean she wont need you anymore, It simply means she can explore who she is to better the relationship between you two in the bedroom. There fore my job, putting the spark back into the bedroom is done. Plus since when is a women who knows what she wants a turn off?????? Just a few random thoughts. If you want to book an online party or live in the area and want to host a party here is my website www.sarahalexander.pureromance.com or pureromancebysarahalexander@gmail.com 

Thanks for viewing!

Love Always

Sarah

Feeling...ugh do we really have to go there!

So as some of you know I am really not really huge into feelings in public. With that being said behind close doors I am needy and I love the attention on me and only me. (I can be a little too needy) So I started to read a book as of late and I found myself unable to stop reading...I stayed up late and woke up early just to read the next line. It was about a man and women (of course a love story) who find themselves unable to let go of each other, wanting the others company more then they knew was possible. I guess my point as to why I am explaining this to you is.....PASSION!
Do all married couples find themselves so comfortable with each other, knowing each others every reaction to things that the simple draw to one another is gone???? Over the last few years I probably would have answered that with a auto response yes, as of late I would like to believe that a few minor changes and that answer would be NO!
Do us women think about things a lot more in detail about our love life then men? I would think so, unless you are one of the few lucky ones that you man acts as if he comes straight out of a romance novel.(Not sure I could handle that...ahh on to my next point)
Could I handle a man that acts as if he was written by the details of a dream life of a women? I don't know but some how sitting down and thinking about it I am happy to say I am happy with my Husband. He might not buy me flowers or for that matter anything but He knows the right moment to make me smile or laugh, he knows the right moment to remind me of who I am and why I love him and not a character out of a romance novel.
So maybe our love life isn't as it once was but is that not life? Is that not the near means of married to test all your limits and somehow find a way to stay in that seat until the ride of "life" is done??? I think so, I think GOD tests us at every corner with every bump or shift to make sure we are where we want to be or where he wants us to be!
OK I am done now before I start to rumble on and on!!!!!

Love Always
Sarah