I was sitting in bed with the Hubby last night and I started to think........How is it that the only person I can call my best friend (beside my family of course) is my Hubby. I understand that is how I can call him my love is because he is my best friend. I just dont understand how in my life he is the only person that is that close to me, that knows the ins and outs of me as a friend. I feel as if I have some amazing friends people I can truly talk to when I need it the most but no one that I would say is "like a sister" please don't take this the wrong way!
I have gone through my whole life just wanting two things really........A Husband which I finally have.......A Friend that knows more about me then I know about myself.........Which I think I only ever had once but that relationship has been pretty much been nonexistent for the last 5 years. I wondered last night is it my fault? Am I reaching for something that will never happen? Is it me that prevents this from happening........I could go on and on with questions that filled my head before falling asleep last night. I woke up this morning and the thought that crossed my mind was......Maybe it is just not the way my life was meant to be like maybe I was meant to just have this one main person in my life that serves a duel purpose that person being Clay.
Some of you I am sure are saying to yourself, She has wrapped her entire world into this man.....So what maybe I have but this man again besides my family has always been there for me through the down and up times always knowing what to say ,how to act to make me go from frown to laughing so hard I am crying. So yes I have wrapped myself into this world of Clay's Wife. Who is to say that my life would be any better if I had done what my "friends" at the time wanted me to do.
I guess my point is sure I don't have a group of girls that we can go out to lunch every Sunday but I do have a few girls that I can call when I am down and they do their best to pick me up and I have a husband that is and will be there for me no matter what. That is what I have to learn to love and accept as reality.
Love Always
Sarah!
I know how you feel Sarah. I almost feel like even once you get married your friends think your to busy or because you have a guy around they can do their own thing. It's lame. Then you go some where else and you have people do the same thing to you. I am always here Sarah and am a lone a lot because of non-commital friends and Joe's work scedual. So I just sit at home and cook a baby. So if you need anything I'm just a text or phone call away. :)
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