Me thinking again!

Scary I know.....I just have had soo many thoughts running through my head as of lately. Some things about the past concerning old friends some things about the present job and friends. Part of me thinks I strive too much for perfection with things then I probly should....part of me thinks I slack off too much! I will admit I am not the kinda person to just go with the flow if I want things to go a certain way. I do need to be in some sort of control even if its something little! Maybe its because I am extremely over tired but some days I wonder if I would have turned out any different if I tried a little harder or pushed myself even more. My answer is no I don't believe it would be any different then now. Guess I will never really know.

How come I am so scared of failure?


Am I scared of being forgotten....being unknown......not worthy! Not sure....all I know is sometimes I try to pretend I know what's going on to fool myself into believing I am something great.... just to keep myself going!

Well I should head to bed!

Love Always

Sarah